Passed away @ 34yrs... A Pity...

Another voice of angel left us just like that... life is fragile... treasure it...

'Funeral' at a different angle of speech... "Beautifully imperfect"

"Funeral" is a new TV commerical launched by the Ministry of Community Development, Youth and Sports (MCYS) which looks at relationships in a different light, through a woman at her husbands funeral. Ultimately, the TVC celebrates the beautiful imperfections that make a relationship perfect. This is fresh off MCYS latest Viewers Choice 2008 win for last years Family TVC which promotes the importance and value of family bonding.

I was watching TV last night, and this ad caught my attention... initially i thought it was a new local TV series.. but i was wrong... it was a 3mins ad...

what made it so meaningful was the angle of the speech the wife of the late husband gave... "I want to say something that will make some of you feel uncomfortable" " I want to talk about what happened in bed."... it started off with what it seems like a mocking statement for her husband... watch on ... *Snores* ... "the signs of the loved one ... alive"

"in the end, it's these small things that you would remember, the little imperfection... that makes him perfect" ...

sometimes in life, we always look at things at a superficial manner, we always discreminate people, never even think of how the person is like until all is lost...

so look at things differently, embrace and treasure the people around you, they might even create an impact for you and make you move up another notch..

For those people with imperfections, you are all "Beautifully imperfect"

1230am... feeling alone

it is 30mins pass midnight... i couldnt sleep... something is bothering me yet i couldnt identify...
i had a very listless day... was in deep thoughts the whole day... so much so that my mind kept wondering away... mental block i presume...

at some point i just feel that i am gonna drift away with the wind so carefree and disappear and at some point i just feel that i need to be rock hard solid to overcome issues...

am i suffering from the worse thing of all? depression? or just insomnia... ?

am i stressed? or am i just overworked?

i have lost myself... the bubbly Ben whom i once knew... had now became the sulky, fiercesome Ben... where did the smile went?

people tell me to look forward to a great weekend... it will focus your thoughts... i tried... but i couldnt.

Friday, i felt so alone... so vulnerable even with the slightest touch... so much so that i yearn for the warmest hugs from my loved ones... embracing it and don't let go...

Ben, where are you? please come back... dont leave an empty shell here to fend for it's own...

Weekend...

Friday evening
what a feeling
feel like singing

Tired of working
mind is burning
feel like dancing
yes I do

Because you've got to make
the best to love while you're on
go people

When i see you smile

Sometimes I wonder how I'd ever make it through
Through this world without having you,

I just wouldn't have a clue

'Cos sometimes it seems like this world's closing in on me
And there's no way of breaking free, and then I see you reach for me

Sometimes I wanna give up, I wanna give in, I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you baby, and everything's alright, everything's alright

When I see you smile, I can face the world,

oh oh, you know I can do anything
When I see you smile, I see a ray of light,

oh oh I see it shining right thru the rain
When I see you smile, baby when I see you smile at me

Baby there's nothing in this world that could ever do
What a touch of your hand can do, it's like nothing that I ever knew

And when the rain is falling, I don't feel it,

'cos you're here with me now
And one look at you baby, is all I'll ever need,

it's all I'll ever need

Working on a Dream

WHAT DO I WANT IN LIFE?
Right now...i am working on my dream... Come On! and Let's Go!

~{Out here the nights are long, the days are lonely
I think of you and I'm working on a dream
I'm working on a dream
Now the cards I've drawn's a rough hand, darling
I straighten the back and I'm working on a dream
I'm working on a dream

Come on!

I'm working on a dream
Though sometimes it feels so far away
I'm working on a dream
And I know it will be mine someday

Rain pourin' down, I swing my hammer
My hands are rough from working on a dream
I'm working on a dream

Let's go!

I'm working on a dream
Though trouble can feel like it's here to stay
I'm working on a dream
Well our love will chase trouble away}~

it's been awhile... it's not easy...

it's been awhile since i wrote on my blog... yeah... a month... like a long month of joy, pain, sickness and memories..Why is it so hard to juggle, work, family, personal?... how to make it a balance?

Be like a superhero who can handle everything? will that solve?

it is not that easy...

i guess that is me... i am too into doing things hoping everything will turn out perfect...but i did forget to ask myself -do i feel good by doing so? do the people really feel good with me doing so? or am i just into perfection? or am i boosting my ego?

Do you know the common taboo for all the superheroes till date... would be love, feelings... they never end up with a happy ending do they?

i always never think of the feeling or thoughts of people around me... with my actions, my decisions.. neglecting even my own feelings... even worst ...hurting others

me no superhero, me dun wan to be superhero...

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird...I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd...but don't be nieve
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won't you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream

It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It's all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy...or anything...

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It's not easy to be me

Sex For Hire

Nobody

Nobody is Perfect... and i am Mr. Nobody. :)

Tomorrow

Mister Magorium

" please do not sulk, everyone must face tomorrow. To Understand that we may be Sad, Scared or even be Suspicious."

"To face tomorrow, whatever it may hold with determination, joy and bravery."

"We breathe in, we pulse, we regenerate. Our heart beats, our mind creates and our soul injects."

we need to face everything still, if there is still a tomorrow.

End a story, start a new day with a new one.