Thursday, May 7, 2009

Did i just did something wrong?

i think i just did something very terrible today... was i being to busybody?
all i wanted was to have everything cleared up... i spoke to my boss...

i just cant take it anymore, the feeling of losing of another good colleague.. and i am with the company long enough to feel the pinch... from A****r, A**m, W****r, C****r, B****e, E***r... 6 of my colleagues all left within the span of my 4 years. now X

i noe too much to bottle up my feelings already.

i've decided to tell my boss on this , explaining to him on the situation now internally... i told him that history is going to repeat again something which he will not know of until it is too late... i cant handle another blow again... and i dun think i am able to handle the losing of another capable colleague and for him losing another talented employee...

after which i told X about it...

X flared... "my mind is made up, and i intend to go. regardless of what changes are made." " why do you have to drag me in?, how can i possibly trust you with anything i say to you anymore?"

is it that bad?... i could have just let it be... let it go... just let it happen when the day comes... but i couldnt... it is too hard for me.. to bottle it up and keep mum about it... the feeling of being helpless sux... big time.

now X wun even talk...

i noe i cant change a person's intention...i just thought that with my initiative, i could let my boss identify ths issue more quickly... let him understand what is going on and allow him to be able to change certain rules... to retain wateva is left within his grasp...

fingers crossed... i HOPE..

Understood that there is always an entrance and an exit in life... be it in a relationship, friendship, or any terms of unison... it will always happen... i couldnt help but keep thinking of it...

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I guess it is just something that you need to get off your chest as well as bringing it to your boss' knowledge of what you felt abt the situation all along, or rather the same cycle over and over again. eventually u did it .. whether or not it'll help, it's really not up to your control and like what you have said, keep our fingers crossed but at least u did your part.

I'm sure she'd understand your intention isn't malicious or whatsoever just that right now perhaps she's pretty tired of all these and just wana make a quick exit regardless of any other factors.

:)