Hiding myself

When I was a little
My life was full of joy
I only thought about growing up
With a really bright future
But suddenly, my life just changed
And those thoughts disappeared
Now the only thing I think about
Is hiding away my fears
I just keep

*Hiding Myself
From the rest of the world
Just curled up in a circle
Never wanting to unfurl
I know that something out there
Is waiting just for me
But I can’t see it
Cause I’m hiding myself

Don’t ask me how I got this way
Cause I don’t really know
I’ve lost the voice that tells me
How to live, and where to go
I really want to change myself
And be how I used to be
Unfortunately, it no longer is
An easy thing for me
I just keep

*

Don’t you dare say that I don’t try
I’m trying everyday
Don’t say that I enjoy feeling like this
In truth
I want it to go away

I know someday the day will come
When I regain what I have lost
And I will make that day come
No matter what the cost
I just keep on trying
To be how I used to be
You don’t know just how much
I want to be the old me
Spoken: The only thing is…
I just keep