it's been awhile... it's not easy...

it's been awhile since i wrote on my blog... yeah... a month... like a long month of joy, pain, sickness and memories..Why is it so hard to juggle, work, family, personal?... how to make it a balance?

Be like a superhero who can handle everything? will that solve?

it is not that easy...

i guess that is me... i am too into doing things hoping everything will turn out perfect...but i did forget to ask myself -do i feel good by doing so? do the people really feel good with me doing so? or am i just into perfection? or am i boosting my ego?

Do you know the common taboo for all the superheroes till date... would be love, feelings... they never end up with a happy ending do they?

i always never think of the feeling or thoughts of people around me... with my actions, my decisions.. neglecting even my own feelings... even worst ...hurting others

me no superhero, me dun wan to be superhero...

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird...I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd...but don't be nieve
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won't you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream

It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It's all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy...or anything...

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It's not easy to be me