it is 30mins pass midnight... i couldnt sleep... something is bothering me yet i couldnt identify...
i had a very listless day... was in deep thoughts the whole day... so much so that my mind kept wondering away... mental block i presume...
at some point i just feel that i am gonna drift away with the wind so carefree and disappear and at some point i just feel that i need to be rock hard solid to overcome issues...
am i suffering from the worse thing of all? depression? or just insomnia... ?
am i stressed? or am i just overworked?
i have lost myself... the bubbly Ben whom i once knew... had now became the sulky, fiercesome Ben... where did the smile went?
people tell me to look forward to a great weekend... it will focus your thoughts... i tried... but i couldnt.
Friday, i felt so alone... so vulnerable even with the slightest touch... so much so that i yearn for the warmest hugs from my loved ones... embracing it and don't let go...
Ben, where are you? please come back... dont leave an empty shell here to fend for it's own...
2 comments:
Hi blogger,
we have started a new blog at http://bloggersinsingapore.blogspot.com to feature some of the lovely entries from some of the more serious bloggers in Singapore..
and we happened to surf into your side.. can we have the permission to feature one of your stories and a link back to your site? and at the same time to include your blog into our list of Singapore bloggers?
Hope its a lovely day at your site
Best regards
Leon
http://hanleong.blogspot.com
yes you may :)
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